Chasing Fire Chapter 11 ~ Asshat Syndrome (Edwards POV)
I had hurt her, I had screwed up my chance of being happy again. Standing there in the parking lot, it took me a few minutes till i got up the courage to walk back in and finally tell Lindz that I wasn’t her Edward anymore. I wasn’t the same person and that I didn’t love her the way she deserved. We both had changed and we both had to live with that.
The thing was, i didn’t need to get the courage up at all, Lindz somehow already knew. I guess she saw it in Bella and my faces.
There were so many things I wanted to say to her. To tell her I wished things were different between us and that I could change it for the better. I couldn’t even find the words to apologize for being such an asshat and a total fucktard. I stumbled to find the words to say these things and as the moments passed by I couldn’t get them or anything else out.
I had so much to say but the only thing I could muster up and say was a single word. It left my lips in a hurry and it was so simple, deep and vague yet I wished I could have taken it back. I should have said something more meaningful and deep but it was all I could say to Lindz, was the simple word phrase, Sorry. (But I really did mean it.)
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